Is this a mental disorder?

Okay, I have asked this on here before, but recieved no helpful answers... Question: Is it a mental disorder to be obsessed with pedofiles? I like them, a lot. I have ual fantasies about them and try to "get with" them, and I like talking to them...everything. I know it's not "normal"... My friends made sure to get that clear to me... lol I've always been engrossed with the idea of pedofiles and meeting them and getting d by them. That's another weird thing. I want to be d... I watch and get off to it... <